four seasons in one day
Today is an anniversary of sorts for me. It was six years ago on March 5th that my husband and I went to the movies and then to dinner. When we got home, he started crying and told me that he wanted a divorce so he could marry another woman. My world fell apart, and in the ashes a new life began.
The first anniversary of this date was hard because the divorce wasn't final and I was really ready for it to be legally over. I wanted my name back and needed closure. My parents and I took the day off work and went shopping at Potomac Mills. It was a good day.
The next few anniversaries were uneventful. Life was good and I may have noticed that it was March 5th, but it was not painful. This year I realized the date was approaching. My divorce and all the feelings around it have been drudged up as a result of the Beth Moore bible study and an MYF bible study on relationships. I asked my parents to hangout with me so that I wouldn't just be at home stewing. They had a nice dinner and Mike, Sarah & Jonathan were able to come also.
It turned out to be a fine day. I wasn't miserable and I didn't wallow in painful memories. In fact it occured to me that instead of thinking about this being a sad anniversary of all the things I lost, it should be a happy day of celebrations. Like an independance day that was the begining of a wonderful new life. So in the future, I will choose to celebrate this day as a new begining rather than a day of pain.
After dinner with the fam, I spent a couple hours cleaning and now have a really clean house. Yay for cleaning and new beginings. :)
The first anniversary of this date was hard because the divorce wasn't final and I was really ready for it to be legally over. I wanted my name back and needed closure. My parents and I took the day off work and went shopping at Potomac Mills. It was a good day.
The next few anniversaries were uneventful. Life was good and I may have noticed that it was March 5th, but it was not painful. This year I realized the date was approaching. My divorce and all the feelings around it have been drudged up as a result of the Beth Moore bible study and an MYF bible study on relationships. I asked my parents to hangout with me so that I wouldn't just be at home stewing. They had a nice dinner and Mike, Sarah & Jonathan were able to come also.
It turned out to be a fine day. I wasn't miserable and I didn't wallow in painful memories. In fact it occured to me that instead of thinking about this being a sad anniversary of all the things I lost, it should be a happy day of celebrations. Like an independance day that was the begining of a wonderful new life. So in the future, I will choose to celebrate this day as a new begining rather than a day of pain.
After dinner with the fam, I spent a couple hours cleaning and now have a really clean house. Yay for cleaning and new beginings. :)
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